keluh kesah kak esah

apekah motifnye tulisan harini? sbb gap exam..actually mcm2 dlm kepala nie nk tulis tp cm xde mase "alasan biase dgr dah"...first of all al-fatihah kt arwah naj kwn sekolah rendahku n sekolah menegah..die ade cancer..he got that cancer on 2003 n he's still fighting till this year's november...pas exam aku dpat msg dr kwn sekolah kate die meninggal...hilang kwn sekolah,ak pernah jer gaduh ngn die..tp aku harap die ditempatkan di kalangan org2 yang diredhai...dan cerita sy bersambung dengan keadaan exam yg memeningkan dgn rumate yg suke lgu korea..apekah? dan juga terima kaseh lecturer yg wat soalan membunuh segala kuman dlm bdn utk menjawap soalan2 mereka..apekah? hai tahla senah,mak pon xtahu...dan pd hrni sy xtdo mlm td smpila pg nie..kerana terlebih tdo semalam smpi ptg..pg td cm suri rumah mithali bsuh bj n sidai kain sebelum kul 7..wah2!...lepas paper aku likla umah..spend time ngn family..da nk habis da sem nie...cepat jer rase...next sem punye destinasi percutian adalah genting n bkt tinggi insyaAllah...nk kasi release tensen...n next sem juga beta nk amek lesen...lesen kete r...sume org dok bising so amekla kn...pnjg lak langkah da de lesen nnti..heee...9hb lalu ak ke pavi tgk muvee phobia2..mule seram da tu lawak gile..haha..nk tgk 2012 tp xkuar lagi..iklan kemain smpi ke pop corn pon cover 2012 tp xkuar ag..apekah? ntahlah..hahaha..printer aku lak wat hal..ink hitam saje jer xmo kuar..penat jd pomen ultraman tp xmenjadi jugak..kureng bisnes mak...apekah?...k la nk g shop jp ag beli pape...ke g cafe sarapan sedap jugak..tata

semua yg bermula pasti ada kesudahan :(

sedar xsedar da nk habis da sem 1...now turn for final exam yg memang da start pon..ahaaiii... mine :

1.11.09 archery
07.1109 american literature
08.11.09 error&contrastive analysis
09.11.09 E.A.P
16.11.09 Elit 20th century
19.11.09 Beowulf

Begitulah jadual sy...yg mane sy sgt sedih kerana hbisnye sem ni means kwn sy separuh nk grad..tinggalkn kite :( kite xsukela sayonara2 neh...tp nk wat cmne kn..everythng must come to an end...beta plak sem 1 lagi satu br grad which is end of next year..haisshh nk keje ktne jgn ditnye...rindu kwn2 n certain ppl...we cant hang around lg cm dlu...hmmm :( br sekarang cm sedar some ppl around me AMAT BERMAKNA BUAT SY...terima kasih anda semua...hargai ape yg sy ade sekrang wlaupn ia xlama dengan sy...salam

rumah...awk dimana..

esok jumaat...nk lik umah...yea2..hikhik..lame tggu...tension la 2 weeks nie ngn assgnment, presentation, quizzes...ngn rumate yg xde sensitivity...kalu leh nk kasi pecah gaknye bilik...org ckap da de test n quiz pon xpham...lu nk tension org lain pun tension tp kasi respect r seikit john! org pun de masalah..tp hang cr masalah...da tu nk memekak...hangin je...tp ape2 pn mgu ni nak lik umah...sy rindu rumah...huuuu...kalu de sulur keladi sedapnye :) tp susah nk dpt...nk ckp kt mama...org kalu xreti diam n suke sibuk kite nk watpe ye kt die?? kasi kasut? ke kasi maggie??..hahahha...die mtk maggie kite..nk kurus tp lapar n mlas g beli mknan..apela...okla..tata

home sick

yes as stated above...sy sgt2 nk pulang ke rumah...unfortunately I CAN'T! assignment n homework n presentation is next week...if lik rumah sy tidak akan study sbb main ngn my nephew..mama, papa adik nk lik :( so i decided that i'm not going home this weekend...lik next week ngan hati yang lapang dan tenang untuk rest bfore final exam...yup FINAL EXAM ! sy sekrang sgt tension dgn my surrounding...i desperately need smthing to cheer me up which is FOOD!!..so pendek kan cerite i'm going out tomorrow to give myself a treat...sushila...sgt mengidam...tension2 nie mmg kuat mkn..can't help it..kalu da bosan sgt why not a movie..nway syawal gonna end this week...salam everyone :)

putus sudah...

putus sudah tali beg g class aku...
indicate putusnye beberapa hubungan...
kerana salah diriku...
atau salah orang lain...

kerana sikapku dan kataku...
tapi tahlah...
aku xsalahkan sape-sape...
biar aku simpan...

persahabatan...hubungan rapat...
semua tinggal kenangan...

kalau aku ade kuasa dan kudrat...
dah lame aku melangkah...
kemana-kemana...
supaya orang xkenal aku...

supaya tiada siapa yang terluka...
atau diri aku sendiri terluka..

It runs in the blood

i really love this song..i want to share the lyric with everyone..i feel the calm when i'm hearing it...it touched my heart so deeply...ore piya by rahat fateh ali khan

O RE PIYAo re piyaa haaye
o re piyaa...(O beloved...)

uRne lagaa kyon man baawlaa re(Oh, why did my crazy soul begin to fly?)
aayaa kahaa.n se yah ho.nslaa re(Oh, where did this courage come from?)
o re piyaa o re piyaa haaye(O beloved...)

taanaa-baanaa taanaa-baanaa buntii hawaa haaye buntii hawaa(The breeze teases and taunts me, oh, the breeze plays havoc with me.)
buu.nde.n bhii to aaye nahii.n baaz yahaa.n(Even the raindrops won't shower here again.)

saazish me.n shaamil saaraa jahaa.n hai(The whole world is part of the intrigue.)
har zarre zarre ki yah intezaar hai(I never stop waiting.)

o re piyaa(O beloved!)o re piyaa haaye
o re piyaa haaye(O beloved...)
o re piyaa(O beloved!)

nazare.n bole.n duniyaa bole(The glances are telling, the world is telling)
dil kii zabaan haaye dil kii zabaan(the story of my heart, oh, the story of my heart.)
ishq maa.nge ishq chaahe koii tuufaan(Love prays, love wishes for a hurricane.)
chalnaa aahiste ishq nayaa hai(A new love slowly walks in.)
pehelaa yah waadaa ham ne kiyaa hai(This is the first promise we gave.)

o re piyaa haaye o re piyaa haaye(O beloved...)
o re piyaa piyaa(O beloved, beloved.)
yah piyaa(This beloved.)

na.nge pairo.n pe a.ngaro.n chaltii rahii haaye chaltii rahii(You were stepping on burning charcoal barefoot, oh, you kept walking.)
lagtaa hai ke gairo.n me.n me.n paltii rahii haaye(Oh, it seems that you were brought up among strangers.)
le chal wahaa.n jo mulk teraa hai(Take me to your country.)
zaahil zamaanaa dushman meraa hai haaye(Oh, the cruel world is my enemy.)
o re piyaa haaye o re piyaa haaye...(O beloved...)

hatiku hancur

hati ini xmengharap..tapi kesannya jelas terasa...aku berikrar tidak akan lagi aku percaya insan bernama lelaki....memang tanda-tanda die mengikis buat aku menjauhkan diri tapi pedih sungguh setelah mengetahui kebenarannye tadi...kawanku sendiri yang mengenalkannya padaku ceritakan hal sebenar...tapi kenapa kenalkan kalau dah tahu...dan si dia mengapa buat aku begini...sekadar mengisi masa lapang? boring? terdesak xde teman? kenapa....apekah tujuan kau berkawan dengan ku tetapi kata hatimu padanya...tetapi hari-hari sms ku dan harap aku layan seperti orang yang istimewa...cukup aku katakan...tiada lagi cinta dan hati untuk sesiapa...kalau aku bisa pergi jauh sudah lama aku pergi...pergi mencari ketenangan...ujian ini aku terima tetapi berat hati ini pedih...memang aku tak cintakan nya tetapi sedikit sebanyak perasaan itu ada...xpelah...aku terima...terima dengan hati yang terbuka..terima kasih ya Allah kerana tunjukkan ini padaku....