....

i want it but i just can't get it..

its nt tht i'm moody or ignoring my games..

they didnt know how i carry the feeling of remmbring my dad all the days even while throwing the ball..

well i don't mind keeping it to myself but don't think tht i didnt try...

well tmrrow is a new day, lets make it count...

papa

no wonder asik ingat kt papa few days ago up till yesterday..upenye smthng bad happen..emm ni yg rase hati kt umah ni :(

td along msg kate papa kat hospital..papa jtuh kt surau last nyte..my dad mmg degil, mlm td along nk bwk g hospital xmo..pg td sakit n bengkak..so g sane doc suruh rest jap..

i knw my dad..die akan tahan selagi blh, tp klu die sndiri nk g means sgt sakit..he's 61..ths is the reason why i nk cpt2 grad n keje..

i do have dreams smbung masters tp pikirkan keadaan kesihatan org tua yg xmenentu i rather stay than regretting it..

papa, br smlm dgr suara..ptutla rindu semacam..be strong, i miss u n will pray for u..

i love u..

salam

the biggest loser

yes as mentioned above aku sekarang da gantung bj n suar idaman yg aku nk pkai tp da beli without try agak sendat disitu kerana kegemukan..sentap ko jah!

ala2 the biggest looser gitu pandang bj yg nk pkai..bukan pandang je tp kenala usaha..gitu katenye..

mane xnye...kt umah g dapur lbh kerap dr mandi n solat..sgtt mantop! bile tnye papa cmne nk kurus, katenye : kurangkan ke dapur..haha

anak dara ke dapur tlg mak, aku lak sapu mknan..hamim2.. mmgla ko neh tong recycle,sumbat je ape mmg aku xtolak, kate org rezeki jgn ditolak..hahaha

kt uia bfore break kn ke final exam so aku mkn cm esoknye end of the day..haha

ni lak tgah trainng n new moon bg aku so mkn xteratur n agak keterlaluan ket selera aku..

so kesahnye aku sekarang nk diet semula n serius disini ok..tp pas tourney la coz time tourney(8-11 dec) mkn xtentu n tenaga byk guna nk berbowling..kaedahnye!

tersentap dgr masum in january..apekah?

jgn tnye nape aku ade bowling ball extra instead of six pax!! hahaha

aku da kuarkn minuman aku yg aku simpan..memula je excited br beli la katekan..tp dun worry mmg aku nk kurus semula mane xnye, suar ketat n bola bowling terserlah bile pkai bj..wtf!

no more late night munching..maggie,jajan..bye2 super ring..aku rase nila jihad terbesar aku..haha..korg pe tau selera mkn aku..duit hbs xbeli brg or shopping tp wat mkn..haha

byk tul plan aku ths sem : nk amek lesen, kuruskan bdn, masum, g holidays..

motif : nk kurus !

feelings

a bird wanna fly..

so he has to learns..

its not easy to spread the wings..

he can't cry,sing and fly at the same time..

even if he fly, the rythm was not there...

its still dull and can't be reach..

can someone actually listen to his heart...

to hear what he want and how does he feel all this while..just once..

cause once is enough...

to make him feels cared and free to let it go...

lipas part 2

perlu kah ko dtg..

yg pelik org lain xjmpe aku yg jmpe..

punca? ko letakla rak kasut ko kt luar! sbb die nyorok kt situ!

the fact tht we live at ground floor mmgla tmpt die..silela clear kn pe yg ptut!

nk de rak kasut aku xkesahla..tp every week kemasla, ni x..berabuk..lipas kt payung ko ko tau x! yg jmpenye aku...tensen aku

da r before neh kt bilek aku..

so sile alert ngn ur stuff! clean it regularly!

salam..

hr xselalunye cerah

few weeks ago i felt so happy

but suddenly tonight my mood change

i don't know why but there is a feeling of lost and uncertain

will i be hurt again..

or will i loose someone..

or will i cry..

i don't know but i'm sure it will come..

if yes..God plss show me the sign earlier so that i will be prepared..

i know i'm not strong..but at least i will try to be strong..

mode : sad

salam...

beowulf yg tah pape n etc

hello..lame rase x blogging..ni aku br smpi td dr umah utk trainng ptg neh..mama ku yg sorg suke wat suprise last mnit..org da cun pack brg die bg 1beg plastik mkanan..mama mama..hahahaa..aku mmg kuat mkn n die tau sgt perut aku..dek kepenatan yg amat aku td naik cab dr masjid jamek n kenala RM21.40..cm haram..xpela aku xlarat ngn si pinky ag..aku lik trus excited bukak lappy cek cam..pelik n risau tgk mid term amlit yg nyawa2 ikan n lg la seram tgk quiz beowulf xde..cek email mdm reply kate aku lmbat n die xjmpe pon paper aku n sudahnye xde markah aku..kak mei lek je post midterm's mark pas exam final nape die leh kate aku lmbt..nway, nk ngamuk pun xguna ngn org cmtu..mekasehla mdm..Allah je balas..aku jugak yg die kate salah..xpela aku terima..kang aku ckp lebih kate kuang ajar lak..tp mmg xptt la kan..kdg2 aku kecewa ngn sikap dieorg neh! aku penat tp kena la g trainng memandangkan score yg xmolek smpi papa pun geleng kepale..haiisshh penat ngeluh...tengokkan jela result esok..

mode : emo

salam..