cinta dan jodoh

cinta punyai pelbagai keadaan
terpulang pada setiap individu
cinta pada Allah dan manusia
cinta yg dekat dan jauh, yang kekal dan tidak

pencarian tidak menjanjikan penemuan
terserah pada Dia yang menentukan
harapan xselalunya memberikan hasil
dan penantian xselalunya sia-sia

semuanya terletak pada keputusan-Nya
siapa jodoh kita dan bila ia hadir
sering kali aku ingatkan diri ku
"apa yang kita ingin kan xsemestinya terbaik untuk diri kita"

semoga kita semua bertemu dengan jodoh yang kita inginkan

salam

keeping "i love you" to myself

the person is in front of you but you just can't tell him how much you love him..
have you ever encounter this part in your life?
well its hurting me..
i want him so much..but i don't want him to go away when i confess..

since i know that there will be no more relationship than friend for us..
and i have to keep it since i don't want to lose him..
i'm hating myself cause i do appreciate what i have which mean this friendship..
but i want more..which i think makes people hating me..

i'm sorry, i just can't help the feelings that growing inside me each and every single day..
what i must do is keep the distance between us so that i won't hurt that much..
though i actually lied that of course i'll get hurt..
will i survive with this?.....i don't know but i'll try..

salam

the end..

ISF dah melabuhkan tirai..last friday
kami ke uitm shah alam..
kinda sad n frust actually going back without any medal..
p/s : one medal from azie fr masters (congrat)
seeing others go on stage was hurting me..
but that won't bring me down..
i plan to practice once a week if i can rather than nothing..
the reason is because there will be masum game this coming january and i wanna hit it!
and i think i can if i really work hard for it...

the most memorable moment is spending time with my mates..
u guys r the best..
team event was so cool..
the uncool part is we lost 60 pins that make us be at 4th place..
200 that i'm carving for was not there..the highest that i did was 190..
i'm satisfied that my average increasing each day..

Ya Allah, i pray that i can do my best after this so that i will get medal..
and also in my studies since this is my final year but not final sem..
i will start my driving lesson, i need to ask papa first..
and what inspiring to practice more is we will get a chance to go to manila on May..
so i need to maintain my score since i heard there will be a selection..
and i thinks it gonna be tough!

salam

last but nt least..

tomorrow or should i say today is the last day of ISF..
i hope we did well and i'm praying for that..
lets finish it..
best of luck mates..
i want to improve my score...
and definitely praying for 200 !

salam
status : nervous

....

i want it but i just can't get it..

its nt tht i'm moody or ignoring my games..

they didnt know how i carry the feeling of remmbring my dad all the days even while throwing the ball..

well i don't mind keeping it to myself but don't think tht i didnt try...

well tmrrow is a new day, lets make it count...

papa

no wonder asik ingat kt papa few days ago up till yesterday..upenye smthng bad happen..emm ni yg rase hati kt umah ni :(

td along msg kate papa kat hospital..papa jtuh kt surau last nyte..my dad mmg degil, mlm td along nk bwk g hospital xmo..pg td sakit n bengkak..so g sane doc suruh rest jap..

i knw my dad..die akan tahan selagi blh, tp klu die sndiri nk g means sgt sakit..he's 61..ths is the reason why i nk cpt2 grad n keje..

i do have dreams smbung masters tp pikirkan keadaan kesihatan org tua yg xmenentu i rather stay than regretting it..

papa, br smlm dgr suara..ptutla rindu semacam..be strong, i miss u n will pray for u..

i love u..

salam

the biggest loser

yes as mentioned above aku sekarang da gantung bj n suar idaman yg aku nk pkai tp da beli without try agak sendat disitu kerana kegemukan..sentap ko jah!

ala2 the biggest looser gitu pandang bj yg nk pkai..bukan pandang je tp kenala usaha..gitu katenye..

mane xnye...kt umah g dapur lbh kerap dr mandi n solat..sgtt mantop! bile tnye papa cmne nk kurus, katenye : kurangkan ke dapur..haha

anak dara ke dapur tlg mak, aku lak sapu mknan..hamim2.. mmgla ko neh tong recycle,sumbat je ape mmg aku xtolak, kate org rezeki jgn ditolak..hahaha

kt uia bfore break kn ke final exam so aku mkn cm esoknye end of the day..haha

ni lak tgah trainng n new moon bg aku so mkn xteratur n agak keterlaluan ket selera aku..

so kesahnye aku sekarang nk diet semula n serius disini ok..tp pas tourney la coz time tourney(8-11 dec) mkn xtentu n tenaga byk guna nk berbowling..kaedahnye!

tersentap dgr masum in january..apekah?

jgn tnye nape aku ade bowling ball extra instead of six pax!! hahaha

aku da kuarkn minuman aku yg aku simpan..memula je excited br beli la katekan..tp dun worry mmg aku nk kurus semula mane xnye, suar ketat n bola bowling terserlah bile pkai bj..wtf!

no more late night munching..maggie,jajan..bye2 super ring..aku rase nila jihad terbesar aku..haha..korg pe tau selera mkn aku..duit hbs xbeli brg or shopping tp wat mkn..haha

byk tul plan aku ths sem : nk amek lesen, kuruskan bdn, masum, g holidays..

motif : nk kurus !